Still Learning How to Bend

Well, it has been awhile since I have written. A lot has happened since then. I came back from my trip to Boston. It was hard to leave it, but I'm so grateful to be home. Not long after I returned we discovered my little sister has cancer--a rare lymphoma. I don't think there has been any other experience that has brought me to my knees more fervently than this. All I can think about is things I can do, but there really doesn't seem to be much other than to wait and be supportive as she goes through the chemo treatments and pray. I know many of you who know and love me and my family feel the same way. THANK YOU soo much for all of your help so far. I have incredible friends who have helped me pack and move my sister home as well as various acts of service. I have learned so much about service the last few weeks.

My testimony of prayer has grown. I know that prayer is a humbling power that allows us to access peace, comfort, and strength from a loving Heavenly Father who knows and loves each of us individually. I know that he uses each of us to answer those prayers by prompting us to serve one another so that we may feel His love, have our burdens lifted, gain strength and feel comfort by serving one another. I have "known" this before, but have gained such a feeling in my soul that I can't quite explain or deny. I just feel I have soo much to learn. The best way I can explain it is by the song I have posted first on my blog. I am still learning so much. I know sometimes with me it can be quite the "emotional" journey :-) Thank you all for being so patient with me as I learn how to bend.

"I’m still learning how to pray.
Trying hard not to stray
Try to see things your way
I’m still learning how to pray."

"I’m still learning how to trust
It’s so hard to open up.......
I’m still learning how to trust
I’m still learning how to bend
How to let You in

I’m just trying to understand
It’s all in someone else’s hands
There’s always been a bigger plan
But I don’t need to understand
I’m still learning how to bend"